On one of the days we call ‘tomorrow,’ I will officially turn 25 years old. Never before have I felt so scared and excited at the same time about a birthday. I know that, when I’ve had the chance to blow out the candles on the cake, my wish has always been to be happy. It’s amazing how I’ve steered my life, like a conductor trying to make each of the musicians and different musical instruments sound in perfect harmony. In this case, I also add those imperfect instruments that have found their own way, and thanks to that, they achieve an authentic sound.

I want to forgive myself for all those times when I haven’t been present in my life, when I’ve focused more on the future than on the presence of my own existence. I want to forgive myself for my impatience and for my lack of attention to all those wounds that, instead of healing, I had been carrying as if moving forward also meant carrying them with me. I want to forgive myself for all those times when I’ve taken things personally from others when the reality is that every being and their energy are just being what they choose to be, and that has nothing to do with the individuality of my own expression of being. I want to forgive myself for letting other people’s ideologies about how life should be enter me instead of taking responsibility for creating my own. Although I take pride in the fact that at the end of the day, despite the overwhelming fear, I always seek to listen to my own voice and live from there, I forgive myself for those times when I’ve been unconscious. I also forgive myself for all those times when I’ve judged others and for the occasions when I’ve judged the world instead of seeing it with respect, like a student developing the awareness of self-discovery. In the end, we judge from our own lack of gratitude. I want to forgive myself for the times when I haven’t lived from the true truth.

I also want to apologize for all the wounds I have caused due to the pain of my own wounds, for having locked myself in misunderstanding toward my mother for so many years, when all I should offer her is deep love and gratitude. I also want to apologize for all those occasions when, unconsciously, I allowed intimate people into my life when I felt confused and somehow sought answers or salvation in the idea of others’ love. Although I know I should show more empathy towards myself and understand that many of these patterns I am now unlearning were imposed on me in my innocence, it is necessary for me to forgive. Because in the act of forgiving lies the release of the truth that finally emerges and becomes a profound understanding of the flow of life, of transformation, and ultimately, of that illuminated energy of transformation.

I want to express my gratitude for the woman I have become, for this unyielding strength that has brought me to this point in my life and made me responsible for myself. Because through this openness, I will be able to know myself in all of my forms.

I want to thank for my good health and for my constant effort in seeking optimal well-being. I want to thank for my wonderful body and its intelligence, for its adaptability, for its effort, and for its beauty.

I want to express my gratitude to my incredibly amazing brain for its agility in learning, for its memory that captures every moment I wish to preserve from this perspective. I thank my brain for being this screen on which my soul plays, for its malleability. Although I am still learning to steer it and take control of its operation, I appreciate the experience of having it in a magnificent and healthy form. I am thankful for coming into this world with the optimal functionality of my human body to experience the desires of my beautiful and pure soul.

I view my life so far as a constant journey of learning, a continuous effort to live consciously, and a deep connection with the universe. I remember that afternoon when I was four years old, taking a nap at my maternal grandmother’s house; I felt my heart beating so strongly, and I said, «I have life.» That moment has always accompanied me in every step of my life because it is a reminder that this journey from this body that holds me is temporary. Fortunately, I do not know how long I will be here, although I wish to live a long, conscious, balanced, and happy life, perhaps even up to 101 years if that is possible. But for now, without knowing tomorrow, I want to continue living in obedience to the voice of my soul.

I want to express my gratitude to God because, for me, His existence is simply proof of my own existence. Although I know my relationship with Him is intimate and based on our own understanding, I thank Him from the heart that I can always converse with Him

I am grateful for each member of my family because my wishes for them will always be to live from the voice of their souls, and for all the dreams they want to come true through this communication with their own consciousness. In my prayers, I always wish that their angels protect them, that they enjoy good health, and that every time we have the opportunity to see each other, we embrace deeply and cry tears of joy for the opportunity to continue seeing each other as we grow individually in our own lives.

I am grateful to each of the people in my life and to the different versions of myself I have crossed paths with on this journey. I am grateful for all their teachings and learnings. I am grateful to have seen them from their essence, and I am grateful for their existence.

I am grateful to the close people in my life, my friends. I appreciate their beautiful smiles, their inspiration, their constant work to make their dreams come true, and their true unconditional love. I am grateful to all of you, with whom there has been no limit of distance, and we have found each other here, in the midst of these words. I am grateful for your existence and wish that all your dreams come true.

I have so many dreams that I want to continue making a reality. I want to keep traveling the world, getting to know its different cultures, and exploring the history of humanity through them. I want to keep meeting these incredible people, these artists who express themselves freely in the face of life. I want to keep falling in love with everything new, and I even want to keep discovering beauty in what may not be perceived as beautiful in my human interpretations but always reveals valuable lessons in its depth.

I wish to continue developing my brain, exploring the movements of my body, deepening my connection with my senses, and continuing to explore this life I now have, harnessing its astonishing intelligence.

I long to keep evolving into the woman I aspire to be. I hope to someday love another human being in their pure and beautiful masculine form. I want to love them with complete trust, revealing the beauty of my vulnerability, and expressing the purity of my soul. Together, we aspire to contribute to each other with absolute respect for our ways of understanding and processing. Together, we hope to find our own way of love, make the decision to love each other, and be close to each other until the end of our lives. We want to create beauty in our individual dreams and in the dreams we share. We long to form a family and build a space on this planet Earth where we will express the unity of our existence.

I embrace myself from the root of the first day of everything that has happened, so that on this early October evening, I am here writing this. I embrace myself deeply, with respect, love, understanding, and the certainty that everything is well and will be well. I embrace myself and kiss my own face. I love myself unconditionally. I have always been here for myself, and I will always be here for myself. All the dreams I want to make a reality come true. I am a wonderful life with limitless creativity, and I seek to express myself by materializing this marvelous expression that we give life to.

Happy 25th birthday to the young woman I am now, to the innocent child I will always carry within me, and to the wise woman I will continue to become. As a human being, I am part of humanity, and I will contribute to the movement of evolution through my expression of myself.

I am my own song that resonates in some infinite corner of the universe. Thank you